Well today is one of those days where I would like to wander around and swear at everything.
Mum wound me up this morning with one of her regular moans about god knows what, then work today was boring and I made a cock up that I shouldnt really have done, then I had a shockingly bad driving lesson where I reverted to taking corners in 3rd gear, forgetting to indicate and I screwed up my reverse around a corner so much I refused to attempt it again and started to drive home. Then I got home  to the dictatorship (my mother) and when I attempted to hang shelves in my room she told me I couldn't do it as she decided where things went because it was her house. I reminded her that I bought the shelves weeks ago and if she was that bothered she would have helped me then. She said she would buy me a bookcase and I reminded her that if I waited for her to buy me anything I would still be sleeping on a mattress on the floor waiting for the bed she was going to buy me.
Major case of it you want a job doing properly, do it yourself. As it was the drill I had borrowed from work was harder to use then it looked and I couldnt get the raw plug into the wall far enough no matter how far I drilled the hole.

Grrrr annoying!

To top all this off I have fallen for the classic woman's mistake. Sleep with a guy on a no strings basis then fall for him.
Stupid!
Ok, so a guy I know who I slept with last year at some point has been emailing me. When we slept together last time it was just a case of meeting up for the sex, although we do get on very well as friends. Well the emails have been arriving and I have been replying, fully aware of the fact we were heading straight to another session. What I haven't yet mentioned is that we had THE best sex I have ever had and he has also, on various occasions agreed with just how good it was. We broke my bed beyond repair, thats how good it was.
So, we arrange to meet on friday and it turns out that my house was going to be full and his flatmate had his family round, plan went to pot. I then text him and asked if he fancied coming round for a bottle of wine, that was all that was mentioned as we both knew there was going to be no privacy. So he came round, we sat in the kitchen with big sis and had a pleasant evening. He kept kissing me whenever he could and was touching my hair and my leg. All the signs where there. I told him I had a new bed that I had built myself, (cue him laughing at what he thought was a chat up line!) so we went up to my room and he snogged my face off.

Chemistry was rocking.

We ran off to his house, as we expected his flatmate's family to have left. Luckily they had. The rest I'm sure you can assume perfectly well.

Afterwards he lent me a t-shirt and we messed around on the internet, flicked through the tv and ate crisps. Then went went to bed. To sleep.

Right, so this all suggests at friends sleeping together, yes? Well, the things that have made me think otherwise is that I mentioned to him about my friends upcoming wedding and that the room cost £100, he said he would come as my date and pay for the room. I told him it was in October, to which he replied, "Yes, that ok, I'll still be around"

Next point. When I mentioned that I wanted to go away for my birthday but that it was unlikely to happen, he said "You never know what is around the corner. Someone may whisk you away"

Does this sound like he wants more than just the sex?

On Saturday night, I drunkardly text him, repeatedly as we had agreed that we would meet up for more of the same. He seemed keen but as we were both very very drunk we didnt meet up. I text him on sunday asking how he felt, got a reply and nothing further as to me asking what his plans were for the day.

My email I sent asking if he had recovered yesterday was responded to briefly with no other reply.....

Hmmm, reading this back to myself I realise I have totally stalked him! Maybe I should leave him alone for a day or so.....

Yes, so I'll leave him alone until say Thursday. Then ask him if he would like to meet for a drink soon. then see how he replies to that.

Big sis thinks he seemed interested but then men can sometimes deliberatly give off the signals just so they get the sex.

God knows....

Anyway, as it is probably very clear, todays blog has just been a rant, a way to get things off my chest. Thanks for listening. If you even got this far...

Oh, before I forget. Still no period. Going to go to the doctors soon just to double check...

And I told the guy that may be responsible that he was rubbish in bed and that he really needed to take his head out his ass and grow up.

Long story so I'll tell you another time!

Ta ta! I'm going to go read my book to destress xx